[Well, it's not like he can blame him, especially considering how they met, so he cuts more of his crepe, trying to wrap some of it around a large strawberry.]
In any event, I've been saving material from the classes we share for you.
[ His chewing slows down as his thoughts accost him. He has no idea what's going on in any of them now. Maybe he should drop them. Then he wouldn't have that particular weight pulling him down. High school was wasted on him anyway.
He feels like if he said any of that out loud, Goro would be disappointed. He swallows and washes it down before talking. ]
[Hmm. Well, Minato is difficult. Prying will only annoy him, though. Even outright care and concern tends to be met with dodging at best. That's the tricky part. He has to get him to open up without evading it all.
Well. He does have an idea. But if he did that, he needs to get Minato alone. It would already be something a little mean. He knows he would be mad at someone who did that to him, even if it was out of concern. So should he not do it? He doesn't want to betray Minato's trust. But he really is worried about him. Minato already felt like he didn't have much left and he said he doesn't have hope and now their mission was a tepid success and he really just wants his friend to be okay.
Fuck.]
It's not a problem. I can give them to you on the way back if you don't mind dropping by my room. Well, after you eat of course but it's no rush on my part.
[Well, fuck. He's not committing to it just yet but he can feel himself laying out the plans for it. Ah, where is Qrow when he needs moral guidance?]
[ He doesn't know if he will drop his courses, but it sure sounds like the easiest route right now. Maybe that's hasty... Maybe he should talk to someone about it.
Not right now though. He's practically tired just imagining the attempt. He should try to pretend to be human though. Hang out with people. ]
If you have free time later, we could listen to the mp3 player.
[ An activity with both spending time together and minimal talking. That sounds good. ]
[As they eat, Akechi fills the silence with idle sorts of chitchat, mostly things Minato can just listen to rather than reply with, since he figures he would rather focus on eating. When he finally finishes, though, Akechi asks him to wait a moment. He goes back to the counter and grabs a mug of fountain coffee for himself as well as a mug of special tea for Minato.
All right. Here it goes. If he doesn't want it or doesn't drink it, then that's that. And if he does, well, he'll apologise to him as much as possible and promise to never do it again. He'll even drink some and let him ask anything he wants. Well, not like it prevents you from lying. He thinks? Fuck. He should have looked at that. Something that just makes someone chatty is way more ethical than that. Ah fuck.
Well too late he is already back.]
I wanted some coffee. Do you want this tea? It won't be wasted, so don't worry.
[Okay there. Perfect. That should allow for consent. Some form of consent. Dubious consent?]
[ He takes the cup. He's feeling a little better now that he's had his fill of food and a friend to idly talk with. He's pretty sure once Goro's gone he'll go right back to spacing out at a wall for hours, but that's fine. He at least has the energy to act human around others.
He follows Goro out of the cafeteria to the fourth floor. Time to drown in whatever school stuff Goro's got for him.
[Well. That is that. He has drank the tea. Now there is no going back. Whatever doubts he had must be cast aside so that he can fully commit to this and go through it well to the best of his abilities. It's the only right option now. He will take care to make sure the experience isn't terrible for Minato.
Now that he's drinking it, he's grateful they're so close to his room, since he ushers him inside, hoping it won't kick in before the door shuts.
But now he has to test it. It should make him chatty, right? He really can't imagine that. Well, it's not like Minato has blank nothingness in his head. He has thoughts, he just doesn't voice them. Probably.
So, a softball should suffice. Akechi starts looking through his things for the notes. Mary the Haunted Doll takes that chance to escape from his bag and he sighs as he starts to wrestle her back in.]
[Even though he gave him the tea, a look of genuine surprise crosses his face, Mary escaping his grasp. Well. That is not what he expected but sure. He'll go with it.]
Ah, yes. She is, unfortunately, a haunted doll so it's not surprise that she looks somewhat... gruesome.
[He has no idea if shittalking his doll is a good idea so he tries to avoid it but oh well. He goes back to trying to wrangle her.]
I'm surprised you don't like your classes, though.
[Akechi shoves her down into the bag and ties it back up as he listens to his words. As he suspected, they feel the same thing in the end. Just because he had 'hope' that drove him to keep trying doesn't negate the emptiness, the exhaustion, the listless moments spacing out. While Akechi hasn't drank that tea, he does think he should try to follow a similar rhythm in conversation for now.]
I remember once, in frustration with myself, searching the internet for that feeling. And when I found something that described my feelings, I actually became more angry over it. Sure, something was wrong with me, but not like that. That was just... shameful.
[Right. Get to the point for him.] I say this because I understand what you're trying to describe. It's empty and faraway and you lose hours to nothing and in the morning it feels like moving a mountain would be easier than getting up. Something like that?
You don't have to feel anything about it. Or if you don't have anything grateful to say, that's fine. [He wasn't lying about having class material for Minato, though, so he does set that on the table.] I did say I would accept you as my friend regardless of what you view as your downfalls. And I still mean that. You're... well, depressed. You don't have to push yourself in those ways at least.
[ He sits down at the table across from Goro. He pulls out some of the notes to glance over them. ]
I always have to push myself. I'd never do anything otherwise. I'm too lazy. I went to the cafeteria because I got hungry. [ That was a dumb thing to say. ] Well obviously. I don't think I ate yesterday. Actually that cup ramen might be from yesterday. No, that doesn't matter. You didn't ask about that. Um. I guess you could say I'm sad, yeah. It's probably about Vista Virs. It was nice, and the people were weird, and I'm getting tired of watching others die. But there's nothing to be done about it now so... I guess I'm waiting to get over it. Or I'll ruin everything I've built up. That would suck, but, well. I dunno.
[ He huffs, annoyed. Why does he feel the need to talk so much?! ] This is out of character for me, which I don't hold very highly, but I usually can't think of words good and now I feel the need to talk like an idiot. Did you do something?
[There is a lot to unpack in all of that and Akechi would, except Minato happened to wander his way over to the source of his current troubles. Well. That was inevitable, really, but he had been hoping to talk to him more before then. A guilty look flashes over his face before he composes himself, though he can't help grimacing still somewhat.]
My apologies for betraying your trust but I was... well... [Might as well be honest now.] I've been worried about you. You weren't coming to class and I know you've been rightfully depressed over everything that happened to your world, so I was worried the mission had made things worse. Don't worry. All it does is make you talk more than normal. It isn't some truth-telling sort of thing.
[He thinks. Again, he needs to doublecheck that later but right now he sounds absolutely certain of it.]
Well at least my dumbassery is just as good exposed to be a lie or a truth. [ What the fuck just left his mouth. ] That didn't make sense. At least both my lies and truths are bad. No. They're... Ugh. Fuck it. I don't remember what I was trying to say.
So what is it? A spell? Or is it like. A detective super power that detectives get. I knew a police officer but he wasn't a detective. He sold us weapons. Oh. I guess he's dead now too. How am I supposed to read and talk so much at the same time? This is going to make going over your notes difficult.
Actually he's not used to Minato talking this much. It's surprisingly hard to respond.]
No, it wasn't a spell and I don't have detective super powers, unless you count getting blackmail information out of Shadows? But I can't do that anymore obviously. No, it was just the tea. [Pause.] Though yes, I suppose it would be hard to study and talk at the same time. My apologies for that one. Did you say a police officer sold you weapons?
Yeah. [ He frowns at the cup in his hand, still half full. ] You betrayed me with food. What an asshole. I like food. Maybe I should betray you with something. Like. I don't know. Something. This isn't going well. See, if I wasn't compelled to talk that would have been funny. Or confusing. It usually confuses people. It would have been funny to me.
Ahh... Yes, I am an asshole sometimes. I'm sorry. As I said, I was worried about you and wanted you to talk to me about you, ah, well, your feelings. But I think you're funny?
[A beat.]
Well. It is a very dry humour that I'm getting used to but really all that matters is that you entertain yourself.
Are you trying to match every thing I say with a comment? That seems tiring. And the opposite of an interrogation. Isn't this an interrogation? Maybe you'll answer my questions instead. You said something about Shadows. Getting blackmail from them. How does that work? I only knew one Shadow that would talk to us and he was a really weird case. They mostly attack. Or stand in hallways looking menacing. Or run away screaming if they're weak. That was always fun.
[Did Minato just call him tiring or his way of talking tiring?? Both are bad. Sigh.]
It was fun. [Being overleveled was great.] But ah, at least in the Metaverse, people often had Shadow versions of themselves. Consider them something like what we saw in the caverns on the last mission. I could interrogate them for information on facts they were hiding, like if they were extorting money or seeing an underage girl or assisting in drug trafficking or anything like that, then I brought the information to Shido so he could blackmail them. Shadows have no filter as a general rule so it wasn't hard to even find ways of getting proof.
[ Minato meant he himself would be exhausted if he tried to keep up with every thread of conversation. See, this is why he should keep such comments to himself! Which he would do if he wasn't just spitting out the first thoughts that came to mind because of this stupid need to speak!! ]
A Shadow version of themselves. Huh. Um. Hmmm. Where did you find them? Well, the Metaverse. Is that what you call the Dark Hour? But we didn't meet anyone like that in Tartarus. Which you couldn't see from Tokyo. Does Ryoji-san count? Did they have Shadows shoved into them too? Are there more anti-Shadow weapons?
[Oh is this how it is talking to him when he has questions? But he will do his best to answer them all efficiently.]
The Metaverse is a separate layer of reality somewhat integrated into our own, so it's quite possible it's just a different name for the same phenomenon. Most people can't access it. But yes I haven't ventured outside of Tokyo so it's also possible it takes different shapes outside of it? I wish we had Wakaba's research... [Well. They wouldn't have that either way since the world was destroyed.] Either way, um, I haven't heard of anti-Shadow weapons. I was the only Persona user I knew about until I met the others but for years it was just me. My father trained me a bit but he didn't have a Persona, he just knew how it worked. I don't know who Ryoji-san is? But I did have suspicions about Morgana, though I don't know what he was.
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In any event, I've been saving material from the classes we share for you.
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He feels like if he said any of that out loud, Goro would be disappointed. He swallows and washes it down before talking. ]
Thanks.
[ Just act casual. See Goro? He's fine. ]
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Well. He does have an idea. But if he did that, he needs to get Minato alone. It would already be something a little mean. He knows he would be mad at someone who did that to him, even if it was out of concern. So should he not do it? He doesn't want to betray Minato's trust. But he really is worried about him. Minato already felt like he didn't have much left and he said he doesn't have hope and now their mission was a tepid success and he really just wants his friend to be okay.
Fuck.]
It's not a problem. I can give them to you on the way back if you don't mind dropping by my room. Well, after you eat of course but it's no rush on my part.
[Well, fuck. He's not committing to it just yet but he can feel himself laying out the plans for it. Ah, where is Qrow when he needs moral guidance?]
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[ He doesn't know if he will drop his courses, but it sure sounds like the easiest route right now. Maybe that's hasty... Maybe he should talk to someone about it.
Not right now though. He's practically tired just imagining the attempt. He should try to pretend to be human though. Hang out with people. ]
If you have free time later, we could listen to the mp3 player.
[ An activity with both spending time together and minimal talking. That sounds good. ]
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Yes. Of course. [That was a bit too hasty, fuck.] I would... really love that.
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Whenever you have time.
[ Back to the food! ]
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All right. Here it goes. If he doesn't want it or doesn't drink it, then that's that. And if he does, well, he'll apologise to him as much as possible and promise to never do it again. He'll even drink some and let him ask anything he wants. Well, not like it prevents you from lying. He thinks? Fuck. He should have looked at that. Something that just makes someone chatty is way more ethical than that. Ah fuck.
Well too late he is already back.]
I wanted some coffee. Do you want this tea? It won't be wasted, so don't worry.
[Okay there. Perfect. That should allow for consent. Some form of consent. Dubious consent?]
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[ He takes the cup. He's feeling a little better now that he's had his fill of food and a friend to idly talk with. He's pretty sure once Goro's gone he'll go right back to spacing out at a wall for hours, but that's fine. He at least has the energy to act human around others.
He follows Goro out of the cafeteria to the fourth floor. Time to drown in whatever school stuff Goro's got for him.
He takes a sip of the tea. Chamomile. Yum! ]
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Now that he's drinking it, he's grateful they're so close to his room, since he ushers him inside, hoping it won't kick in before the door shuts.
But now he has to test it. It should make him chatty, right? He really can't imagine that. Well, it's not like Minato has blank nothingness in his head. He has thoughts, he just doesn't voice them. Probably.
So, a softball should suffice. Akechi starts looking through his things for the notes. Mary the Haunted Doll takes that chance to escape from his bag and he sighs as he starts to wrestle her back in.]
I'm sure you've missed classes, hm?
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[ Huh. That was uncharacteristic of him. ]
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Ah, yes. She is, unfortunately, a haunted doll so it's not surprise that she looks somewhat... gruesome.
[He has no idea if shittalking his doll is a good idea so he tries to avoid it but oh well. He goes back to trying to wrangle her.]
I'm surprised you don't like your classes, though.
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They're fine. I don't hate them. Didn't hate them. It's just... It's hard to keep up. I guess? That's not right. They're far away. No.
[ He makes a disgusted sigh. ] Ugh, whatever.
[ He wants to say something but can't find a way to express it, so he just drinks more of the tea to occupy his mouth. ]
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I remember once, in frustration with myself, searching the internet for that feeling. And when I found something that described my feelings, I actually became more angry over it. Sure, something was wrong with me, but not like that. That was just... shameful.
[Right. Get to the point for him.] I say this because I understand what you're trying to describe. It's empty and faraway and you lose hours to nothing and in the morning it feels like moving a mountain would be easier than getting up. Something like that?
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Yeah. That's pretty close. That's accurate. Weird. How do you -- well you just said how. That's a stupid question. Ummm. Hmm.
[ He's frowning now. Something is definitely up with him. ]
Sorry. I feel like I should say something grateful but I've got nothing. Thanks?
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You don't have to feel anything about it. Or if you don't have anything grateful to say, that's fine. [He wasn't lying about having class material for Minato, though, so he does set that on the table.] I did say I would accept you as my friend regardless of what you view as your downfalls. And I still mean that. You're... well, depressed. You don't have to push yourself in those ways at least.
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I always have to push myself. I'd never do anything otherwise. I'm too lazy. I went to the cafeteria because I got hungry. [ That was a dumb thing to say. ] Well obviously. I don't think I ate yesterday. Actually that cup ramen might be from yesterday. No, that doesn't matter. You didn't ask about that. Um. I guess you could say I'm sad, yeah. It's probably about Vista Virs. It was nice, and the people were weird, and I'm getting tired of watching others die. But there's nothing to be done about it now so... I guess I'm waiting to get over it. Or I'll ruin everything I've built up. That would suck, but, well. I dunno.
[ He huffs, annoyed. Why does he feel the need to talk so much?! ] This is out of character for me, which I don't hold very highly, but I usually can't think of words good and now I feel the need to talk like an idiot. Did you do something?
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My apologies for betraying your trust but I was... well... [Might as well be honest now.] I've been worried about you. You weren't coming to class and I know you've been rightfully depressed over everything that happened to your world, so I was worried the mission had made things worse. Don't worry. All it does is make you talk more than normal. It isn't some truth-telling sort of thing.
[He thinks. Again, he needs to doublecheck that later but right now he sounds absolutely certain of it.]
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So what is it? A spell? Or is it like. A detective super power that detectives get. I knew a police officer but he wasn't a detective. He sold us weapons. Oh. I guess he's dead now too. How am I supposed to read and talk so much at the same time? This is going to make going over your notes difficult.
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Actually he's not used to Minato talking this much. It's surprisingly hard to respond.]
No, it wasn't a spell and I don't have detective super powers, unless you count getting blackmail information out of Shadows? But I can't do that anymore obviously. No, it was just the tea. [Pause.] Though yes, I suppose it would be hard to study and talk at the same time. My apologies for that one. Did you say a police officer sold you weapons?
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[A beat.]
Well. It is a very dry humour that I'm getting used to but really all that matters is that you entertain yourself.
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It was fun. [Being overleveled was great.] But ah, at least in the Metaverse, people often had Shadow versions of themselves. Consider them something like what we saw in the caverns on the last mission. I could interrogate them for information on facts they were hiding, like if they were extorting money or seeing an underage girl or assisting in drug trafficking or anything like that, then I brought the information to Shido so he could blackmail them. Shadows have no filter as a general rule so it wasn't hard to even find ways of getting proof.
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A Shadow version of themselves. Huh. Um. Hmmm. Where did you find them? Well, the Metaverse. Is that what you call the Dark Hour? But we didn't meet anyone like that in Tartarus. Which you couldn't see from Tokyo. Does Ryoji-san count? Did they have Shadows shoved into them too? Are there more anti-Shadow weapons?
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The Metaverse is a separate layer of reality somewhat integrated into our own, so it's quite possible it's just a different name for the same phenomenon. Most people can't access it. But yes I haven't ventured outside of Tokyo so it's also possible it takes different shapes outside of it? I wish we had Wakaba's research... [Well. They wouldn't have that either way since the world was destroyed.] Either way, um, I haven't heard of anti-Shadow weapons. I was the only Persona user I knew about until I met the others but for years it was just me. My father trained me a bit but he didn't have a Persona, he just knew how it worked. I don't know who Ryoji-san is? But I did have suspicions about Morgana, though I don't know what he was.
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